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Steph

Dylan was just slow on picking up on things. He was just like that. I don’t know, maybe from when we were little… yeah… and mum and dad would be fighting and stuff. He’d be so good at just blocking everything out, you know? Like, he’d be watching TV, and this was when he was like, what, five or so? He’d be watching TV and then mum and dad would start going off, you know, screaming, yelling, dad smashing her… He just wouldn’t even turn around, wouldn’t notice. He’d just stick his fingers in his ears, and still watch TV, and fake nothing was going on, you know?

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I just, like, when I was little, I could always tell when dad was going to go off, you know? You just know. I’d pull Dylan into the bedroom and close him into the cupboard, you know… I always had a stash of food there… I’m still a bit of a food stasher now… I don’t know why, but you know… but… yeah, I used to… I gave him a Gameboy to play, you know, he couldn’t play it properly. He was too little, but I don’t know, it’d just keep him quiet, something to do really. And then I’d hide under my bed and I remember, like, the paper on the wall was pretty dodgy, and I just used to hide in between it. I was like, six or seven. I suppose me and Dylan both coped by hiding in our own way, you know? I went through a real fat stage, where I’d just lock myself in the toilet, because it was the only room in the house that had a lock on it, and I’d just sit there and I’d stuff my face with food. It was like I was addicted to the taste. It was like a drug in a way, but I just had to keep on eating and just keep my mind off it, you know, like… It’s weird I know, but yeah.

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It was only last year that we left for good. I remember being so angry at her, thinking, ‘what’s the point in going back to some rank refuge if she’s just going to cave all over again?’ And drag us back to him in a month or something. I’ve been to, like, five schools in two years. Never had any close friends. It’s like she wanted to turn me into a freak, like them.

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I just got my bedroom how I wanted it, new paint, new sheets and stuff. I was sick of getting dragged all over the place…